Having a Baby!

Hello All... I found out that Im having a baby! Exciting but also very scary! i didnt plan on having kids for another five years at least! but God has blessed me early! Okay yesterday was my first day of morning sickness and it was HELL!! I hated it i threw up from 12 pm-11pm it was terrible! And today sucks just as much! This sickness thing is killing me, I hate being sick I can't handle it! Its like dying for me! But I will have to get over it I guess because it will probably last awhile! But thats all i have to say for today cuz I have work tonight and that is going to suck because all the food smells make me sick! But later God Bless!

Whats the Point?

Im starting to wonder if trusting a man by giving him your whole heart is a good idea! When you give a man your whole heart there are so many things that can go wrong! He can break it so easily and its like you dont have a chance! I hate that feeling whenever I think about! Pretty much your whole world can fall apart because of that one man! Im seeing it all around me and almost starting to feel it! Here lately Ive been so emotional and overdramatic! Its insane I hate being this way! But whats the point in trying to overcome it when it really does feel like Im last on everyones list! I mean I know its not true to some ppl, like my sister Laura and my family, and some friends. But still Im starting to feel trapped like something is happening to me that I can not change and I really dont like the feeling! Im so inlove with Cody n Im really starting to feel like he is right about one thing! We are drifting apart. But most days I dont feel that way! Its just everyonce in awhile and especially here lately! Its not that big of a deal I guess! I mean ppl change but I just wish the change wasn't affecting our relationship so much! Well other than that life is well....life! I keep fighting with a girl at my work named Bobbie! Which Im getting tired of because I work my ass off all the time at that place n she thinks she does but she does no where close to what i do! But Im going to stop bitching about my life and just be thankful for what I have because that should out weigh everything! I have an amazing family who is there for me & loves me! I have amazing friends whom are totally awesome! & A boyfriend to whom I truly love with all my heart and he is there for me when I really need him! God has blessed me with plenty! Good night sorry for all the griping!

I Wonder!?!

Well lets see Thursday night I had league and bowled pretty good. My scores were 98,134, & 126! That is good for me anyways! But these past few days have been pretty boring! I just have been hanging with my sis and boyfriend and working! Cody and I keep fighting and Im starting to wonder if we are really going anywhere. I mean I love him and have been with him for over two years and he is my world but the fighting part SUCKS!! It is just odd lately! But I did get to see Tarron this morning and right now and it was great! He is getting so big and I love him tons! He is hilarious! But tonight is going to be a boring night cuz no one wants to include me in there plans! Laura is going out wit Shaya and Cody is going to Nicks! ITS SUCKS! I mean I dont have the money to go out but still! Again it SUCKS!! Well have to go, have a wonderful day! God Bless!

Life's Ups and Downs!!

Its been awhile and I have been so busy! Im moving to Pryor and I will be living with my sister Laura. Its going to be great and she really needs me to hang out with cuz well her and Matt were having problems so they took a break, and then later broke up!(how stupid) they were together for 8 months and Laura was the happiest I had ever seen her and they are so perfect for each other. But Matt cant see that or well I think he does but I think he is scared! Its sad that he is throwing away something so wonderful! She loves him and never stops talking about how great he is and everything and I loved seeing my sister so happy! But everything is going to be okay cuz I am going to help her through it! Since Im moving I had to quit my job in Claremore n it kind of made me sad because I really liked the place! The ppl there are awesome! But I am still working at the bowling alley and league has started and I HATE IT!!! Speaking of league I joined one with my sister and its pretty fun! Im not the greatest but hey we all cant be like Stan Doyle...lol! He is awesome! Anywho Cody and I are still together and yes we fight just like everyone else especially here lately but we love each other and we do our best to compromise and work things out! We went fishing with his father the other day and caught so many fish it was great! Now they are in there cooking them YUM!! Our friend Chantel Ward is joining the Air Force which is totally awesome and i want everyone to pray for her, she leaves in October! She is a great person with a big heart, and even though we used to have some issues we got past them and now I like her pretty well! I wish her the best in life and all happiness in the world! She deserves it! So please keep her and her family in your prayers!

Okay something new now! Im still at RSU and school well....is school I guess! But the other night I got to hang with my friends that I have not seen in forever at the homecoming game in Adair! And poor Nate, he was crowned King and then breaks his ankle! Your still awesome Nate! And Megan Fuller was the beautiful queen! She deserved it she is such an awesome girl! But after the game a few of us went back to Alex's house and she made us chocolate pancakes that were amzing! We stayed up forever talking and joking about stuff! I have not laughed that hard in a long time! I miss those times and I hope we can have more of them!

On a sad note, a woman I knew passed away and I would like everyone to pray for the family! Her name was Donna Boharsik and also Pray for the Carmens they have been through so much! I love you guys! God Bless!

Its been a long time!

Well lets see it has been such a long time for starters! I started back at RSU already and its not so bad, but then again Ive only had a few classes lol. Here lately Ive been feeling really down and I dont even know why! Ive been so stressed between both my jobs, school starting, and its like the littlest of things drive me insane. Like here lately I cant tolerate anything even with Cody and my family! I stayed at codys not long ago and played Grand Theft Auto IV forever but it was so much fun! That game really lets you vent out some anger in great ways lol! Then the next night we both stayed at laura's and have a fun time....even though we had to dig tweezers out of the toilet...dont ask lol! But Im hoping to go see alex before she leaves for college cuz I think she is the last one to start! Oh how I love that girl lol!!! I also went to Brookes baby shower! She is so big and she still looks amazing..its great! She is having a baby boy(Zane Noel)! I cant wait! The party was weird at first...I knew no one but it was in this huge amazing house, but after the games and presents it got so much better! Im so excited for her! But she isnt the only one! Ashley Swift one of my bestest girls is having a baby girl(Addison)! I bet she is gorgeous like her mommy!! These next two weeks are going to be so insane with work, school, baby showers, shopping for wedding presents and baby showers! Dustin n Mia are getting married the 30th of this month and Im so excited for them! So I have to buy some new clothes of course cuz...well lets face it I have nothing to wear..well unless i steal laura's clothes but she doesnt like that to much! But I have a class @ 9:30 am tomorrow so I must go! Lata! God Bless!

Boy Have I Been Busy

Its been real busy this past week! I have been doing nothing but working, it seems like I have no time for myself! Here lately it seems like I'm getting sicker n sicker which sucks, but Cody n I have been doing great! And I am spending more time with my sisters which has been great because I love them both to death!!! And this upcoming week is going to be crazy I work everyday and some days I work doubles!! Its going to be insane but hopefully I make it so lets just pray!! Later! God Bless!

Time For Change

Here lately it seems like my life is the same old thing everyday, which seems so boring. I get up, go to work, then come home to an empty house except for my little dog Charlee. I feel like I need to do something exciting and start living in the moment when I'm given the chance. The good thing is, ever since Laura has moved into the rent house it feels like we fight less and get along so much more! I love it like that, I feel like I finally have my sister back! I've decided to start taking chances in life and to live on the edge(or well as close as I can get lol). I guess it's true that the Brave do not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all! But I got to get back to my life now! Later!