Whats the Point?

Im starting to wonder if trusting a man by giving him your whole heart is a good idea! When you give a man your whole heart there are so many things that can go wrong! He can break it so easily and its like you dont have a chance! I hate that feeling whenever I think about! Pretty much your whole world can fall apart because of that one man! Im seeing it all around me and almost starting to feel it! Here lately Ive been so emotional and overdramatic! Its insane I hate being this way! But whats the point in trying to overcome it when it really does feel like Im last on everyones list! I mean I know its not true to some ppl, like my sister Laura and my family, and some friends. But still Im starting to feel trapped like something is happening to me that I can not change and I really dont like the feeling! Im so inlove with Cody n Im really starting to feel like he is right about one thing! We are drifting apart. But most days I dont feel that way! Its just everyonce in awhile and especially here lately! Its not that big of a deal I guess! I mean ppl change but I just wish the change wasn't affecting our relationship so much! Well other than that life is well....life! I keep fighting with a girl at my work named Bobbie! Which Im getting tired of because I work my ass off all the time at that place n she thinks she does but she does no where close to what i do! But Im going to stop bitching about my life and just be thankful for what I have because that should out weigh everything! I have an amazing family who is there for me & loves me! I have amazing friends whom are totally awesome! & A boyfriend to whom I truly love with all my heart and he is there for me when I really need him! God has blessed me with plenty! Good night sorry for all the griping!